Wondering?

If you’re reading this I guess I did decide to post this. I’m not positive I’m going to.

Lately I’m just feeling really lost; like I need to find my true north again. I just feel like I need something more, like another spark. I love my blog.  I do absolutely love it and all of you for your continuous love, encouragement and support.

I have the very best family a girl could ask for.  (Don’t get me wrong. Some days I wanna put on my sunnies and walk away from them pretending I’m not with them. ) They encourage me, challenge me and force me to be the best version of myself I can be.

As for friends, omg,  don’t get me started. They would do anything for me (ok they try to refuse to Black Friday shop with me claiming I’m too intense but I try not to hold that against them   Or they think I’m crazy bananas for wanting to do it.) If you wanna read more about my friends or my family check out my old posts. You’ll fall in love with them the same way I did.

Where I feel truly lost is in my career.  The company I work at is fantastic, the people that work there with me are top notch.  I hope to have them in my life forever. Even past the point when one day we’re no longer coworkers. My boss Kim is an amazing mentor. She constantly teaches me new things and pushes me to be better. (No literally!  One time she told me it’s time to fly baby bird.)  I work as an independent contractor (my choice) I work there part time doing what I used to do (if your not sure what exactly a compliance and legal analyst is don’t worry. Most people still get confused, but basically I help reps comply with the law and help review contracts/gather documentation for regulators and outside counsel.) I’m getting better at working in the industry but I don’t know what I want to do next.

Should I get my Securities licenses and see what my true potential is in the financial industry is, do I use my law license, the one I fought so hard to obtain, do I pack up my life and run away to Europe? (Okay that one may sound extreme but doesn’t it sound really nice?)

I just feel ready to be passionate and engaged everyday. I’m ready to feel a fire in my soul;  something to satisfy this wonder I’m feeling. I’m really tempted to post the song from “Frozen 2” about going into the great unknown.

I’m not writing this post to complain or brag about my life I guess I just wrote it hoping it would lead me to figuring out where to next. Do I go back to full time compliance and/or legal, should I get securities licensure, go into legal for financial, move to Cincinnati and practice criminal/family law there or is there another option I haven’t even thought of yet?  Feel free to comment or email me with suggestions/advice. My email is: therealellewoodz@gmail.com